I’m Alive

It has been a little over a month since my last update. I apologize, guys. I’m not giving up blogging or anything. Updates will come often sometimes, and will likely be slow at other times. It’s not that I don’t want to write. It’s just that life has been moving at a pretty slow pace with not much happening. That’s not necessarily a bad thing. Comfort is heaven. I just don’t want to bore you guys with the mundane.

My new job is still great. I’m on week 6 now, and I still love it. I would like to be a little faster at what I have to do each day, but I realize speed will come with time. It has been a little frustrating seeing my co-worker come back to help me with my store when he finishes his own some days. I know it’s because I’m new, but knowing eventually he will just count on me to do my store alone after we do our first stop together, I feel bad he has to do extra work because of me. I’m just a perfectionist, and I want to be awesome at what I do. I know I will be.

My boss is awesome. He has swung by my store or called me each week to check on how I’m doing. He said he likes to speak to each of his employees at least once a week to touch base, make goals, work on opportunities, etc. I didn’t get the development I was craving in my last two jobs, so this is pretty amazing. I’ve communicated with him that I want my speed to be better, and he has assured me that it will come with time.

I got my car fixed. It was a pretty easy, but semi-expensive fix. It was around $500 to fix. I had to replace a tire on it this week, though, which cost another $100. My car is expensive.

Outside of work I have been relaxing and doing things I love. My friend Jane and I watch So You Think You Can Dance together each year, and since it’s on, she’s been coming over every Wednesday. That’s been fun. I’ve been playing a lot of games. I’m really into Animal Crossing now. Here is my character:

Animal Crossing

Everything is naturally Final Fantasy X-themed. My villagers are calling one another fiends, and saying things like, “I got too close to Sin,” and “Praise be to Yevon.” I amuse myself.

Online, I haven’t really worked on my fan sites much, but I am still passionate about them, will continue working on them, and will make more. Fan sites are a way for me to rant and vent about things I love, and connect with other fans. They’re a great creative outlet I’ve enjoyed for years. I’ve recently gotten into fanlistings and got some surprising, but exciting approvals: Tidus from Final Fantasy X, Knuckles from Sonic the Hedgehog, Wolverine from X-Men, and Ghostface from Scream to name a few of my favorites. Here are the fanlistings I’ve made so far:

Tidus Edward Knuckles Wolverine Jaws Ghostface Casey Becker Leatherface Courteney Cox

I’m not sure what I’m going to do with them yet. Some are and more will become fan sites, and some of them I’m content being fanlistings. I’m not sure if I should make a section for them here at Nightbringer, or make a separate fanlistings collective. For now, I just kind of have them linked on my Fanlistings Joined page.

I hope everyone had an awesome 4th!

Living Without Stress

Sorry for not updating recently. I literally got my new job, finished things up for my previous job, and then had to prepare to leave town for a week of training. Frito-Lay sent me to Kansas City Monday, and I just got back yesterday afternoon. I’m off today, and I start in-store training tomorrow morning at 3:15 AM.

I love this company. I can honestly say in the week I’ve been with them, they have taken more of an interest in me, and have made me feel more valued than any other company I have worked for. On Monday, when I was filling out paperwork, my boss’s supervisor was sitting across from me talking about the company, and he told me I’m special, and he wants to get me back in school. The company has a tuition reimbursement program, and is going to pay for me to go back to school. His goal is not to just promote me to the position above mine, but to the positions above that. He said, “Welcome to your career.” That feels awesome.

Frito-Lay is part of the Pespico family with Pepsi, Quaker, and other companies. Being as big as it is, its employees get discounts through a number of different companies. My cell phone bill alone went from $105 to $65 a month. I get 25% off of Papa John’s pizza. I get discounts on hotels, concerts, theater, movie tickets, cars, computers, furniture, pet needs… I am really surprised by all of the benefits I get as a Pepsico employee. I am excited.

My car is having over-heating issues again. I took it in to be serviced, and I haven’t been called about the diagnostics yet, but I know repairing it is going to be expensive. I’m trying to not be bummed out about it, because it’s out of my control. I live life with two general principles: 1) Attitude affects everything. I wrote a little about that in my last entry, and I’ll talk more about it in a future one. 2) Don’t stress about what I can’t control. Stress is dangerous. It causes health issues, emotional issues, and is just generally not good. In life, we’re going to be presented with obstacles… things that happen to us that we can’t control. When those things pop up, we can stress about them, or we can think about how to combat these issues, and how to make them not affect us. Everything in life is conquerable. It’s important to remember that. I’m not perfect, and I have to remind myself of these things when obstacles pop up, or something goes wrong that I can’t control, because I have a tendency to want to stress like any human being. All we can do is play with the cards we have. For me, I have Lee, I have friends, I have a job… If I can’t afford to get my car fixed right away, I can find ways to work.  And because I work, I will eventually be able to fix the car situation if I can’t right now.

I am going to be fine.

I Got the Job!

I’ve been holding off writing about the process I’ve been going through, because I didn’t want to jinx anything, or advertise anything I didn’t have, but you are reading an entry from the newest employee of Frito-Lay! I had my first interview with an HR rep and a supervisor a few weeks ago, on a Friday. The following Monday, I did a second interview and a ride-along with a Frito employee to see what the job entails, and gauge my interest in the position. Today, I had my third interview, a panel interview with a district manager and the HR rep again. I spent a good deal of my interview talking about attitude. They asked about failures, successes, and prior challenges, and I’m a firm believer that we all mistakes and we all have struggles to overcome, but I get to choose the attitude I bring to work each day. That choice can never be taken away from me. It doesn’t matter what is thrown at me, what mistakes I make, or what struggles I have to overcome… I decide if I let those things get to me, or if I take them on and conquer them. I believe everything is better and easier if you have a positive attitude. I talked about a quote by Charles Swindoll in my last interview:

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.

Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company… a church… a home.

The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past… we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude… I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.

And so it is with you… we are in charge of our attitudes.

I think I let my inner nerd show a little too much, but I had to be myself. I live by Swindoll’s philosophy in my professional life.

The district manager said that he doesn’t normally do this, and he had other candidates that he should probably discuss with the other supervisors first, but that he felt it would be a travesty to let me leave the room without working for him; he wanted me that bad. He complimented me on my positivity, and said that he thinks I will bring the morale up for his team.

I was blown away by the compliment, and I am super excited to work for this company. I’ll write more about the job a little later because I’m about to go to dinner with friends, but the job pays more, it doesn’t cut out during holidays like my current one, and I don’t have to worry about the uncomfortable work situation I wrote about in a few prior entries any longer. I am so excited!